I cunt afford making another big mistake in my life again, not now. Especially when it is based on my own feeble judgement. Blame me for all you want but i wudn't want the phrase "one bitten twice shy" hit on me hard. Its sad that someone you thought knew you inside out does not actually know you at all. Am i making sense? Heck..
It hurts when you were unappreciated and not understood.
It hurts when it meant something special to you but than it was not taken seriously.
It hurts when they take advantage of you.
It hurts when there's too much empty promises made.
It hurts when hopes are being raised just to be dissapointed repeatedly.
It hurts when they do not LISTEN to you.
Im confused, by the four letter word, L.O.V.E. Someone taught me a total different meaning to it. Another someone made me experience a total different story. Someone else question me about it. Sometimes i don't think it ever exist in the first place.
I was often misunderstood by many. Mainly due to the public's perception of my physical being or maybe from word of mouth. All sorts of things they say, they presume. Some are inadvertently true but some are insanely ludicrous.
Till this very day, i still fear of my past. Im running away from my present. I hope future does not come near.